STUBBORN CAN'T WIN

After getting rejection in screening itself. I was little disappointed. I was not ready to accept this failure. I have always seen myself as a deserving candidate for armed forces. But something was wrong, which lead to my rejection in screening itself.

I had applied for university entry scheme of Indian army, and I got SSB call for it. 

As it clashed with my CDSE SSB, and I preferred CDSE SSB over UES INDIAN ARMY SSB, so I didn't appear on the first date. They called me again for the same course at Allahabad in absentee batch.

Allahabad is considered as mecca of all SSBs. It is one of the oldest selection center in the country. 

I had one month time, and I started preparing. I didn't concentrate on the reasons which lead to my rejection in screening. Once again I was preparing for psychology, interview and group task, which was the 2nd phase testing.

I booked my tickets for Allahabad. I felt that may be I will make it in army. I was going with some hope. 

Train journey was tiring as I traveled in RAC, and shared a single berth with another person. Journey was about 25 hours. 

I reported there on MCO. Unlike CDSE ssb where 250 candidates appeared, here only 29 candidates appeared for UES, as it was an absentee batch, and all regular batch was already done. Accommodation was not impressive as it was at Bhopal. I felt Bhopal is one of the best selection centers in India. The first day we filled lot of forms, and we were free in evening. After eating dinner, I called my friend, and we both kept on talking on phone for about 3 hours. I wasted lot of time. That day, it was IPL finals of 2010 season. I didn't wish to miss it, so I watched the finals at my block till 1 in morning. TV was provided there in each block, which was unique thing compared with other selection centers. I was in 14SSB board. In morning I woke up early, and was feeling tired as I didn't complete my sleep.

Once again the screening procedure started. I didn't perform well in reasoning part. Now I was aware that, I had to give my best in PPDT. I had already decided that which story I am going to write irrespective of the picture shown, as generally picture is hazy, and characters in the picture is not much visible.

But when picture was displayed, I was shocked as picture was clear, and characters were clearly visible. I decided that I will not back out from my plan. I will write the story which I already decided. In picture a doctor was shown, but I showed a lawyer as I decided.

I narrated my story and was little nervous. All other candidates showed a doctor in their story, and I was the only one to show a lawyer. I knew this is going to be difficult during discussion. I decided, I will support others stories as I was alone having different story. Group discussion went well and I was confident that I will get screened in this time.

Soon they announced the screening result. My chest number was 4. Chest number 1, chest number 2 and chest number 3 were screened in. Chest number 4 was once again screened out. 

Again I was shocked, disappointed. I informed my father. He was shocked, because I was screened out twice in a row.

Due to my stubborn nature, I got rejected. STUBBORN CAN'T WIN!!