How does it feel, failing again and again, despite of your best efforts! I just said best efforts. If someone is putting his best efforts, then why he is failing consistently. If someone is trying best, and still fails, then that means, that is not his best. After 4 failures in SSBs, and each one for different reasons, I was terrified from inside. I controlled my emotions, I never showed that I am terrified, but I was. I was losing confidence. I was scared for the first time in my life. My parents acted that they were supporting my decision of still trying for armed forces, but even they had few doubts on me. With each failure they were losing confidence in me. I had applied for Short Service Commissioning in Technical Branch for Indian Navy. This entry is only for engineers, either B.Tech/B.E or M.E/M.Tech. I figured out my name on their website, though I didn’t received the call letter, but we were allowed to carry the print out. After two straight screened out experiences...

My new year started on a disappointing note. Now it was clear that I can't be a pilot in Indian Air Force. But may be I haven't yet begun to fight! I was happy about the fact that I was rejected due to PABT Test, and I was not rejected by the SSB Interview. Failing in PABT doesn't mean that you don't have officer like qualities, it only means that you don't have attitude to be an pilot in Indian Air Force. I accepted the bitter truth, and it was time to move on.  I appeared for combined defence services exam CDSE II in September 2009. I qualified that exam, and got a SSB call for Indian Navy. I was called to 33SSB Bhopal and my reporting date was 23rd march 2010. Now this was call for 3rd battle of my life. It was important to me because CDSE is a dream course. I started my preparation. I knew the mistakes which I made last time. This time I started preparing for interview. Interview was one of those point which I was lacking. I didn't concentrate on screen...